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Friday, December 12th, 2008
6:09 am - A Very Brad Pitt Day
After waiting for a looong time (8 years is a bit too much, yeah?), I have finally seen Fight Club.  A movie/book that I have wanted to see/read and never got the chance to.  I dunno what the hold-up is, all I know is that whenever I'm about to watch it, something else comes up.  Then the time came when it just slipped through my mind..  Well, it's good though, that today was the day that I got acquainted with it.  At least I am a whole lot older than I was back in 2000.  A higher chance of me greatly appreciating the movie (it was most definitely kiddie material).  I can't even decide whether I will go through with watching the movie this morning, seeing that I haven't read the book yet.  Movie first, book later or book first, movie later?  In the end, the movie won out (or maybe I just didn't want the opportunity to fly by).  Anyhoo, an office Christmas party is about to happen soon..  I have the notFight Club book in my wishlist so I'm pretty sure I would be able to read it before the year ends..  Hurrah for Christmas parties~ ;p

Brad Pitt's presence didn't leave me, though.  After I finished the movie, I went out to spend time with my daughter in some mall up north.  Wouldn't you know, the bus that I got on was showing Troy.  Abs.  Lots of abs.  As if I didn't get enough from Fight Club (mind you, Edward Norton was love in the film).  So I guess, hurrah for abs..?

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Friday, November 14th, 2008
5:26 am - Antique Bakery the (korean) movie: a real-life yaoi experience

Japanese anime turned to live action movie. Blatant guy-to-guy themes. Beautiful Korean boys. A fan girl's wish come true.

I thought I died and went to heaven.

Antique Bakery is a manga about four men who work in a (duh) bakery. The set reminded of the Korean drama My Name is Kim Sam Soon. Very delicious-looking. Cakes, cakes and more cakes. Oh, and boys (I had to mention that since that contributed to the delicious factor). Since I have no idea what the manga's all about, (not until I saw a somewhat-scandalous photo of the guy from Princess Hours (Goong) and of the Waffle guy from Coffee Prince did I come to know it), I wikipedia-d like there was no tomorrow. And wouldn't you know, it seemed like what I knew was enough. Hahaha.. All I can say is, it would have seemed like the manga's main purpose was to insinuate nosebleed to fan girls such as myself. Oh, the fan service~

As I was wikipedia-ing everything I could find about Antique Bakery (while my cute little Korean student waited on the line), I came across the jdorama adaptation of the said manga. It was shown last 2001 (with my boy Takki as one of the cast). I haven't had the chance to see it, though. And I might not have the heart to anymore, seeing that they did a few, correction, MAJOR alterations to the show. Namely, removing all hints of boy-on-boy moments. Heartless, I know. Boo!

And so, I busied myself with Korea's version of the manga. Ah, lovely. Imagine my reaction when I saw that suspicious (not to mention, hot) photo of Prince Shin (Gian, in the Filipino version) being hugged from behind by Waffle guy. Massive nosebleed. And that was just one of the still photos! You wouldn't wanna know how I looked like when I saw the trailer. I nearly fainted. Oh, the kissing scenes~ Tons of kissing scenes! With different boys! (Apologies for my fan girl-ing..)

Prince Shin (Joo Ji Hoon) is the lead. He plays the owner of said bakery. Ironically, he doesn't like sweets. Or so they say. He grew a mustache in this movie, far off from his snobby, boyish good looks in Princess Hours. He seemed more mature, more manly in this film. Although I have to say for myself that I'm not quite digging the mustache. Doesn't mean he's not hot, though..

Waffle guy (Kim Jae Wook) is the lovely and, ahem, gay patissiere of the bakery who is supposedly the best in the biz. Problem is, he kept on getting fired because he is such a beautiful gay guy that his co-workers end up fighting over him. In the story, he is hopelessly in love/like/lust with the bakery owner. I have to say, hands down, Jae Wook has got to be the hottest uke I have ever seen. Totally opposite from the stoic, bad boy feel that he has in Coffee Prince. He rose to the top of my hotness meter when I saw the scene where he was gyrating his hips while on top of a table in a club. If that isn't hot, so shoot me.

The other two who completed the cast are Yoo Ah In (who looks like Rain) as the young rebel-type with a sweet tooth who becomes Waffle guy's so-called apprentice or something, and Choi Ji-Ho as a stiff-looking, sunglasses-wearing guy who acts as a bodyguard slash friend of Prince Shin (sorry, I didn't get their Korean character names!). Incidentally, Mr. Sunglasses will soon be harboring a crush on Waffle guy.. Hurrah for love triangles!

From what I've heard, the movie opened on Korean cinemas yesterday. I can't wait for the dvd (my dvd contact will be hearing from me). I can't wait for the movie! I know I can't stress that enough so I apologize (again) for the obsessive fangirl-ing-ness that this blog entry is oozing with. Forgive the probable shallowness (and eccentricity - considering hobbies like this are not considered normal under, well, normal circumstances).. Ah, to each his own, right? Oh well, while the movie's not here yet, I'll be enjoying myself with youtube videos of sneak peeks and altered trailers of the said movie. It would seem like Kim Jae Wook has temporarily invaded my brain with not-so-decent thoughts of him and a certain prince..

Kneel to the new, hottest Korean actor! (no pun intended)

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Wednesday, October 1st, 2008
10:26 am - I want those hip-hop abs!
Sucks.  I´m too hungry to think about my lesson with my next Korean student.  God, I wish she would be absent.  I can hardly concentrate on anything else except the angry growling of my stomach.  T´was my fault for being an ambitious bitch in thinking that I can do this whole diet thing by cutting of on rice and what-not.  Sucks, really do. 

Yeah, I should just stick to exercising.. and die in the process! (that´s sarcasm there, just in case no one got it..)  I know, exercising is most definitely NOT a good idea for a single mom who has a full-time AND a part-time job.  I work for, like, 7am until 11pm.  For 5 days a-friggin-week.  Less time to sleep, zero for exercising. 

Oh, and did I mention that our VERY considerate AND thoughtful clients re-arranged the schedule to something that resembles an effin´ quilt?!  Go to work for 2 days, take an off for a day, then go on work again for 3 days.  A quilt, man. QUILT.  Patchwork all the way.  No wonder the attrition´s rate is high.  Work´s a load of bull.

..and with the way that my schedule has suffered from quilt-tation, how will I ever get those hip-hop abs?!


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Thursday, September 25th, 2008
10:25 am - Google It!

Idle minds do a LOT of things, apparently.  Just ask Din-Din!  Hehehe.. Got this from her.  All you have to do is GOOGLE images to answer the questions.  Cute. :)

1.the age you will be on your next birthday: This is next year!

2.a place where you'd like to travel: Paris, France

3. Your favorite place: the beach!!!

4. Your favorite object: my flip-flops..

5. Your favorite food: pizza!!!

6. Your favorite animal: rabbits are cute. :)

7. Your favorite color: definitely pink!

8. The town in which you were born: Quezon City

9. The town in which you live: Mandaluyong City

10. The name of a past pet: snow.. :c

11. The first name of a past love: huwhaat?! pwede bang the closest to love na lang? embarrassing.. sana walang kakilala namin na makabasa nito!
if you know the guy, the one in the pic and the one he pertains to, STFU! hehehe.. ;p

12. Your first name:

13. Your middle name: Pedrajas

14. Your last name: obviously..

15. Your nickname: hehe.. cool icon.
16. A bad habit of yours: oooh yeah.. baaadd..

17. Your first job: English 2020

18. Your favorite cartoon character: NA-RU-TO!!!

19. Your major in college: bs human ecology, major in family development with specialization in early education (hagard yung pangalan nung degree!)

20. Your university: the school we love the best..

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Friday, September 12th, 2008
10:52 am - soundtrack for the week


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Monday, September 8th, 2008
10:58 am - Three word, eight letters...
I am officially hooked.

Had the chance to FINALLY watch Gossip Girl last weekend.  Marathon-ed the whole season 1 and streamed season 2´ś 1st episode, and I have to say that I am totally in love with the whole Blair-and-Chuck romance.  As in, really.

Chuck Bass is the best bad boy I have ever seen (recently anyway, and not counting the ones I met in real life).  Blair Waldorf is the prettiest bitch I have ever laid my eyes on.  Seeing them is a little deja vu-ish to Sebastian and Cecil from Cruel Intentions (Ryan Philippe and Sarah Michell Gellar), except Blair and Chuckś a little too PG for them.  Still love them, though.

It won´t be right to spill the content of season 2´s episode 1 but I can hardly hold myself, so please, watch.  NOW.  Before I do some major spoilers here..  And so that I would have someone to talk to! Hahaha!

Oh my..  I¨m gonna do it.  I´m so sorry!  I can´t help it..  I just have to post this.  Then, maybe, you guys will see the need to watch episode 1.  Spoiler alert.

Chuck: Please don't leave with him.
Blair: Why? Give me a reason... and "I'm Chuck Bass" doesn't count.
Chuck: 'Cause you don't want to.
Blair: That's not enough.
Chuck: 'Cause I don't want you to.
Blair: That's not enough.
Chuck: What else is there?
Blair: The true reason I should stay right where I am and not get in the car. Three words. Eight letters. Say it... then I'm yours.
Chuck: I... I ... [pause]
Blair: Thank you. That's all I needed here.

Blair and Chuck are LOVE.

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Friday, September 5th, 2008
10:52 am - Thatś what you get when you let your heart win..
Stupid LSS (last song syndrome).  Paramoreś song has been on my mind for almost a month.  The intro plays the moment I open my friggin' eyes..  Itś not that I don´t like the song (I do, actually) but, damn, 4 weeks is too much.  I need to hear a new catchy song and let my brain be mushed by it.

I can´t believe I´m writing this entry while the song in question is being played in the background.  Hahaha!  I can relate to the song so that could be one reason it won´t stay out of my mind..

¨That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa
I drowned out all my sense with the sound of its beating..¨

It´s like a song that says ¨I told you so!¨ or ¨Ayan kasi!¨ or ¨See what happens, bitch?¨ when you let your heart rule over your mind.  Or something.  Not like I´m an expert about that. Hehe..

¨I wonder how am I supposed to feel when you're not here,
Cause I burned every bridge I ever built when you were here,
I still try holding onto silly things, I never learn..¨

This.  This is called stupidity.  But it happens.

¨Pain, make your way to me, to me
And I'll always be just so inviting..¨

Oh yes.  Release your inner masochist.  As much as it shames me, I do have these moments.  Not all the time, mind you.

¨Why do we like to hurt so much?¨

Why nga ba?  I have no idea.  Itś like one won´t feel human if he didn´t.

¨Now I can't trust myself with anything but this
And that's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa..¨

True.  So true.

And so the LSS continues...

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Thursday, September 4th, 2008
10:33 am - heart-to-heart : the last for the day
Q: Have you ever told anyone you were okay when you really weren’t?
Ü Yes.
Q: Do you think anyone out there loves you?
Ü i hope so..
Q: What are you listening to right now?
Ü go girl by pitbull. i know, party mode.
Q: Who did you hug last?
Ü si rambo ata.
Q: Last person/s who told you things were going to be okay?
Ü si din-din. hehe..
Q: Does the number 19 have any significance to you?
Ü no, it doesn´t.
Q: Be honest, do you like people in general?.
Ü yeah..
Q: Who was the last person that left you a comment?
Ü kitoy!
Q: It's 4 in the morning, your phone rings who do you expect it to be?
Ü one of my housemates or my mom..
Q: What do you think your best friends are doing right now?
Ü being busy with work?
Q: How old do you think you will be when you finally want to have kids?
Ü but i have one already.. i was 23 when i had her. :)
Q: What are you most looking forward to tomorrow?
Ü last day of work! inom!
Q: Have you ever been awake for 48
Ü yah..
Q: Are you jealous of anyone right now?
Ü not really..
Q: Do you like your first name?
Ü yes, very unisex. haha..
Q: Would you ever forgive someone if they cheated on you?
Ü good one! ako pa talaga yung tinanong huh..
Q: Is there anyone you hate right now?
Ü i don´t like hating. :)
Q: What are you looking forward to in the next month?
Ü my kid´s 1st bday, PA payout, 13th month pay (mukhang pera), new friends, new gimiks!
Q: When is the last time you talked to number 1 on your top friends?
Ü they´re all equals.
Q: What color is your hair?
Ü black w/c kinda looks brownish in the sun.
Q: Are you single or taken?
Ü single
Q: When you think of the rainbow, what pops in your head?
Ü the big beach umbrella
Q: Have you lost contact with someone you miss?
Ü yes
Q: Do you think you’re old?
Ü yup. sadly.
Q: Are you afraid of the dark?
Ü yes! hehe..
Q: Are you anything like you were last year?
Ü i´m hoping not. didn´t really like how i was before. doing my best to be better..
Q: Do you wish you were someone else?
Ü no, i´m happy with myself.
Q: Can you see yourself ever being with someone you’ve thought was just a 'friend'?
Ü i dunno.. all friends are strictly just friends. i think. maybe.
Q: Do you talk a lot?
Ü when in the mood
Q: Can you play billiards?
Ü no unfortunately!
Q: When was the last time you cried really hard?
Ü really hard? but i was drunk last i cried. i can barely remember..
Q: Are you self conscious?
Ü at times
Q: Last (other's) bed you slept on and with whom?
Ü why should i broadcast this?!
Q: Ever danced in front of the mirror?
Ü yes! cameron diaz style!
Q: How many hours of sleep did you get last night?
Ü 3 hours. just like the rest of my days in a week.. :c
Q: What music are you listening to?
Ü r&b when feeling sexy. reggae when feeling high. alternative when nostalgic. punk/emo when just my normal self.
Q: Have you told anybody you loved them today?
Ü no
Q: Have you ever liked anyone within your circle of friends?
Ü at one point, yes.
Q: Who do you trust with EVERYTHING?
Ü close friends
Q: Are you living a lie?
Ü no
Q: Who was the last friend/girlfriend/boyfriend in your house?
Ü friends. mejo madami sila eh. mga teammates from etel.
Q: Can a girl and a boy be best of friends without having feelings for each other at one point in the friendship?
Ü of course! tried and tested. :)

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8:39 am - The HURT Survey
N1)Would you spend the rest of your life with your current partner?
++ but.. i don´t have a partner. :c

2)Would you kiss again the last person you kissed?
++ yah-ha!

3)Do you have a crush on someone?
++ yup!

4)Have you ever liked/loved someone so much that it hurt?
++ hmm.. i dunno.

5)Have you ever made a boyfriend or girlfriend cry?
++ i think so.

6)Are you happier single or in a relationship?
++ i´m happy right now and i´m single. technically. so yeah, single. :)

7)Have you ever told someone you loved them and didn't mean it?
++ err, yeah..

8)Have you ever had your heart broken?
++ at one point.

9)Have you ever broken someone's heart?
++ yes

10)Talk to any of your exes?
++ no

11)If you could go back in time and change 1 thing, would you?
++ no. i try not to regret.

12)Think any of your exes, feel the same?
++ no. when itś over, itś over.

13)Do you believe that you are a good boyfriend or girlfriend?
++ based on the past, no.

14)Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?
++ depends

15)Do you want to get married?
in d future
++ honestly, i don´t know.

16)Ever liked someone else's boyfriend or girlfriend?
++ yes

17)Have you told anyone you'd marry them?
++ no

Repost this as:
The HURT Survey

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8:17 am - relationship or one-night stands? - serbey -
Are you in a complicated love situation?
♥ complicated, yes. love? hardly.
Do you hate more than 3 people?
♥ i don´t like hating. :)
The last thing you drank?
♥ san mig light
Favorite chocolate?
♥ anything mint or dark or both.
How many pairs of shoes do you own?
♥ less than 10. m´not sure.
Have you ever thrown up in public?
♥ oh yeah..
Do you like beer?
♥ yup!
Pepsi or Sprite?
♥ sprite
What are you listening to right now?
♥ my mind´s playing an LSS of misery business by paramore..
Does the looks of a person matter?
♥ i would be a hypocrite if i said no.
Are you too forgiving?
♥ not really
Last gift you received?
♥ make-up! from myself.. (how pathetic! haha!)
Do you own a gun?
♥ i wish. this is a no-no for a trigger-happy bully. hehe..
What did you do last night?
♥ read some NarutoSasuke porn.. yeah!
Nick names?
♥ jap, jappy, mommy jappy, japs (eww)
Are you thinking about somebody right now?
♥ no, not really.
Ever called somebody 'Boo' ?
♥ nah, but my friend does. DID.
Are you happy with your life right now?
♥ i could be happier..
Do you love/like someone right now?
Does anyone love/like you?
♥ i dunno. :c
Last thing you read?
♥ some IchigoIshida (bleach) porn. haha! ;p
Are you afraid of the dark?
♥ err, yes..?
Have you ever broken someone’s heart?
♥ i think so.
Can you cook?
♥ water. rice. hehe..
Money or Love?
♥ both?
What do you want more than anything right now?
♥ for my kid to have a happy life. :)
Do you enjoy scary movies?
♥ yes! because i´m slightly masochistic and i like torturing myself.. haha!
Relationship or one night stands?
♥ uhm, pwede friendship nalang? haha.. yun yun eh! haven´t tried the latter and i don´t think i could. hehe..

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Monday, September 1st, 2008
8:51 pm - Boredom Breeds Bangs
Maybe itś because I got used to the idea of doing double shifts and having no extra time whatsoever that I found myself last Monday in front of a mirror with my hair covering 1/4 of my face and scissors in hand.  No suicide attempts happened.  But I looked like I jumped straight out of a Tokyo-themed place complete with plaid skirts and knee-high socks.  Ladies and gents, I now have bangs.  (cue in dramatic lights and music)

This is what happens when I go on off?  Damn.  I must be desperate.  But that day, me and my housemate (Jannie) got thru 3 movies already and we still felt like there was nothing to do.  Hence, the bastardizing of my hair.  Oh well, I feel a wee-bit confident seeing that my good friend (Lelai) has been sporting the same Japanese-pornstar hairdo for months now and she looks fine!  Hehe.. ;p

And so, I have been wearing bangs for more than a week now.  Still feels weird.  Still looks weird.  I mean, c´mon, last time I had bangs was when I was in 3rd grade! I was 9!  And no, this is not like those asymmetrical bangs thingy that are in fashion right now, but the straight-cut, above the eyebrow shebang (pardon the pun).  Like Gogo from Kill Bill.  Ooh, I will post some pix soon...

The hell.  I´m talking about hair.  HAIR.  Four hours with nothing to do must be really getting into me.  Heck, I´m even blogging.  For my friends whoŕe not updated, this extra time that I have is spent in an office in Ortigas.  Supposedly, I´m a part-time Online English Instructor.  But, itś been 2 weeks and I still have no student.  I guess thatś good, right?  Wrong!  Do that everyday and you know how wrong it is to stare at your computer monitor for 4 friggin' hours!  Oh, and once the 4 hours is up, it doesn´t end there.  I have to go all the way to Makati to start my full-time job which starts at 12-f*ckin-30 in the morning!  Itś called suicide.  But thatś suicide with a purpose.  Will not do that anyway if it weren´t for something (or someone) important.  And I´m guessing you have an idea whatś important to me, right..?

Two more hours.  Two more hours and Iĺl be punching out of the office here in Ortigas, catching one of those late-night buses to go to Makati.  And then Iĺl be dozing my ass off on my full-time job while blaming it on my part-time job wherein I´m literally not doing anything.  Contradicting.  Or something BS like that.  Letś just wish that I start my ¨real¨ part-time job soon.. before my bangs get sniped to half.  Again.

(P.S.  You don´t have to tell me.  I know it makes no sense.  Kinda like my life.  Haha!)

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Wednesday, August 6th, 2008
11:51 pm - party mode


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Thursday, May 1st, 2008
7:11 pm - The Boy Next Door - Ch. 2: First of Summer
Uchiha Sasuke, honor student, graduating high school senior & candidate for a scholarship at the best university had his life perfectly mapped out... Until his new neighbor messes it all up, perfectly. AU, NaruSasuNaru.

Chapter 2 found here..

Rest of the chapters.. http://www.fanfiction.net/s/3165871/1/The_Boy_Next_Door

current mood: amused

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Saturday, October 13th, 2007
1:50 am - death by chocolate..
holy sh*t~ it's been, what, almost 5 months since my last entry? damn.. talk about uber-laziness.. anyway, no one's reading it so no problem if i don't update.. hehe..

my last entry was too depressing! what the hell was that?! obviously, a lot has happened in the span of 5 months & i'm so over the depressed stage. i'm in my 9th month of pregnancy already.. never been too excited in my life! i can give any time next week 'til november 20.. isn't that great? oh, also my baby's a gurl! so cute, right? everyone's excited.. people at home, at work, at my ex-school.. hehe.. everyone is. :)

they say that when one is pregnant, one shouldn't look at ugly/scary people/things because it might affect the baby. i know, that's bull. but a week ago, i marathon-ed death note, and by gods, as much as i love ryuuk, he's pretty scary to look at. let us hope that he did not, in any way, affected my baby gurl.. haha!

and speaking of death note, damn, i dunno why, but up until now, i still can't get over the ending.. it haunts me. it's the last thing on my mind before i sleep & the worst part, i dream about it! what the~! it's just too crazy.. or maybe, i'm just too crazy. but then again, i have known that a looong time ago.. another thing about death note that haunts me, well, not necessarily "haunt".. more like me daydreaming about it often.. is the part where L massaged Raito's feet & Raito, in turn, wiped the rain from L's hair. too adorable. i keep replaying it in my mind~ well, what do you expect from yaoi fan~ ;p now, i raid sites that hints at anything RaitoxL.. obsession stage, here i come. NaruSasu was easily discarded. just kidding~ i still love that. i'm just so into RaitoL at the moment.. i'm still high for them~ hehe.. again, let us hope that my baby doesn't look like any of them. now, that'll creep me out..

current mood: bouncy

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Friday, May 18th, 2007
3:31 am - of teenage angst & pink chucks..
figured i might as well add something here before i upload a fic. my journal looks uber-bare, it's kinda gross..  m'still at our office's gameroom, netting away, seeing as this is for free, so heck, why not take advantage of it, right?  anyway, the road home gets me all depressed & m'not meaning that in a chessy kind-of way.  it's literally & figuratively true. what i hate in my day is the trip home, after work, where my mind's actively thinking of all the idiocracy i made, and still, can't effin' believe that everything that's happening is true.  confused?  no, dont' worry. this is not your average teenage angst. after all, m'far from being a teenager. m'already 22. i would like to think of myself as an adult, but given the current circumstances, i come to terms w/ the fact that m'not. i don't know what the hell m'doing.

here's the story.  i'm almost 4 months pregnant. no boyfriend.  we broke up before i found out.  m'not after him, though.  s'okay even w/o him.  and when i say this, i mean it. m'not being all bitter & defensive & anything sh*tty like that, just tellin' the truth.  what depresses me though is the fact that i haven't told my family yet.  well, i did tell my mother.  she freaked out, cried, all the usual reactions.  it broke my heart.  i can't go through that again.  i just can't.  i don't think i can face my father, i don't think i can see him w/ those reactions.  it'll kill me.  guess this is what i get for being a screwed-up daughter, huh?  wish the baby could understand.  wish it could realize what a f*cked-up life it will have once it's born. it'll be messy & so..i dunno.  it just doesn't seem fair for the kid to grow up like this.  if it could understand that, will it go back to heaven? 

the trip home will be hard again.  thinking of how to break it to them, what to say.. the feeling of depression, of stress.. they say the baby feels that, too.  then why is it still staying?  why does it want so much to live when I, on the other hand, don't.  m'having that urge to cross the street w/ my eyes closed again.

current mood: depressed

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3:18 am - newbie-ness
wow. another so-called attempt in creating an online journal. how many tries have i made? 4? 5? not quite sure. although, m'pretty sure that i am never able to keep it up. but since m'on a lean shift w/ my job, i can do this thing. yosh. m'probably gonna post my fics here..
i think that'll be a good idea..

current mood: apathetic

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